Wow. It’s been a while since I’ve been here. The lightning bugs have all died off and made way for the late summer butterflies. The kids in this part of the country have all gone back to school, and have been there for a few weeks now. We are now entering the last days of summer, and while I love summer – I really do – for the first time in years, I will not be sad to see it go.
The reason I haven’t been here in so long is that I have been in such a funk, for lack of a better word, all summer long. I haven’t felt like myself in ages, and it still seems like the life I’m living isn’t even mine anymore. I have literally lost count of how many bad things have happened. But the main things have been two more deaths in the family (my grandmother, and my sons’ stepmother’s mother), family drama, dealing with one son’s verbally abusive (and now former) employer, the other son totaling my best car (I can’t stress enough how thankful I am that he was not hurt!!) and finding out that it was under-insured, meaning we didn’t get a full blue book value settlement, and a host of other super-random annoyances. And the 14th marked one year since my sweet Daddy passed away.
I am happy and grateful for the good things that have happened and have managed to function quite well just by forcing myself to keep putting one foot in front of the other because I know I am lucky, and we are lucky, and that things can always be SO MUCH worse. But yes. This summer = dumpster fire, and I am ready for a fresh start with a new season.
First off, I just have to say how happy I am to have rediscovered Kat’s blog, Mama’s Losin’ It! She’s irreverent, funny, and oh-so relatable. Back when I blogged on a much more regular basis I participated in her weekly Writer’s Workshop, and came across so many other really great bloggers that way. You should go check her blog out!
One of the prompts for this past week was to write a list about what you are most looking forward to this fall. For obvious reasons, I chose that one!
- It means this summer of doom is finally over. See above.
- Cooler temperatures. Summers are really hot and really humid here in the deep south, and this one was no exception. I look forward to crisp air, open windows, and lower utility bills since the ac won’t be running as much.
- The smell of burning leaves.
- Cool autumn rains. Nothing soothes my soul quite like rain.
- Autumnal Equinox. Ushering in the darker half of the year, which sounds depressing, but really isn’t to me. I’ll be deep cleansing the house, and turning my meals, meditations, and other self care more towards hearth and home.
- Replacing my totaled car. I’ve read online that the best time to purchase a car is during the colder months because sales are usually slower and this sometimes results in lower prices/better deals. I am currently shopping, with plans to purchase more towards the winter end of fall. I figure I’ve already made it through the worst of the summer in my backup car (my 16 year old Beetle – I love it, but the heat and ac went out last year, and I never fixed it as it was my backup car.) and it won’t kill me to go through the fall with it as well. Especially for a potentially better deal on a new daily driver!
- The return of my favorite fall tv shows. I have a lot of shows I can’t wait to see again, but at the top of the list are This Is Us, Good Girls, Grey’s Anatomy, and Hawaii Five-O!!
- The busiest shopping season of the year. I work in retail, so fall is our busiest shopping season, which means I will have the opportunity to work more hours. This will come in handy not only because those hours come to a screeching halt by February, but also because I will likely have to finance my next car. Having more money will definitely help with car payments – something I haven’t had in nearly 20 years!
- Walmart holiday layaway. I know how bad this sounds, and I hate that I have to shop at Walmart for some things. But they’re the only retail store to offer layaway anymore, and that’s usually the only time of year for me to get the pricier items I need and to take care of holiday gifts.
- My birthday. Yes, I’m older than I would like to be, and only getting older. But still, I look forward to completing this latest trip around the sun. You’re only as old as you feel, right?
- HALLOWEEN! ‘Nuff said.
What are YOU looking most forward to this fall?