First off, it’s Valentine’s Day and the day after Galentine’s Day, so happy Half-Off-Chocolate-Day Eve!
One of the prompts for the Writer’s Workshop at Mama Kat’s this week was “If you could have given yourself a snapshot five years ago of what your life is like now, what would the picture be of and how do you think you would have felt about it?” That is the one I chose (obviously), because “five years” (more specifically, a five year plan) has been on my mind a lot lately. But instead of looking into the future, I’ll be reflecting on the past, and wondering what my past self would have thought of the life my current self is living.
Five years can do a lot to a person, both good and bad, and it has done exactly that to me. To be completely honest, I’m not sure how my 2014 self would feel about how I live now. I mean, she had such high hopes for me (us?)!
She needed more hours, a more stable schedule, and health insurance at work. She got that, which was great. She needed a newer vehicle with fewer miles once her beloved Beetle’s heat and ac finally gave out, and she was able to get that as well, which was great! She wanted to continue to visit out of town friends and go to concerts, and she did that, though not as much as in the past. She would visit family more than ever one year in particular. She’d gain and lose weight and cut the cable cord to save some money. She’d even eventually cut all her long hair off, something she would NEVER consider doing in 2014! And she would start her vintage resale business on Etsy.
She’d be heartbroken to see that her father is no longer with us. That her grandmother is no longer with us. That the family’s first pet, a Chihuahua named Mini, is no longer with us. That she’d have to deal with Lifetime-Movie-level family drama (which she wisely let go, because there was nothing to be done to improve the situation anyway). That she’d watch her sons drop out of college, go through multiple jobs, and each of them would go through painful breakups while she could do nothing to make things easier. That one son would have a really bad car wreck, but would thankfully walk away with no major injuries.
She’ll start to breathe a bit easier now that one son is in a great job and the other is in a relationship which makes him happy. She is happy to know that after a year or so in “the real world”, the sons now know they need an education and want to get back to school. She was against it at first, but she’s fallen in love with the new family pet, a pit bull (AmStaff) named Aristotle. And she’s learning to try to take the good with the bad.
Seriously, who wouldn’t love this squishy-face?
I’d like to think that even though she’s extremely disappointed that she can’t keep a cleaner house, hasn’t gotten many home improvements done, and learned that Criminal Minds is ending, she’d still be happy to know that she’s still here, doing her very best every damned day, mostly happy, and that she – and her family – will be alright.
What would YOUR five year snapshot look like?